Pieces of me

I was not a popular person in school.  I was more of a loner.  While I may have been true to me, I didn't have close friends, best friend who I could tell anything to.  I was not into the same things kids my age growing were.  I played sports, but in all honesty I was not the best.  Was I the best me while playing sports?  Sure!  Was I a star athlete, NO!  So then I had to have been brilliant, right?  No again.  I was the best me I could be.  Should I have applied myself more?  Sure, but I passed my classes with A's and B's which was good for me.  Then came college.  What an unexpected ordeal.  Not my favorite time in life at all.  Feeling lost and alone, I turned to people who I thought were friends, but not in a true sense.  Because I was out in the world unprepared, I followed like a sheep and almost flunked out of college.  We all make bad choices, but for me I wasn't sure I would live through ...

It has been a long time since I posted anything.   I have steadily been working on myself and finding out who is, Amanda Tachick.  What does she want, where does she want to be, is she at peace with what her past holds, what does she truly believe in and who is she!  Today finds me wondering:  at the age of 35, have I missed the oppertunity to have children?  is it too late for me.  Then on the other hand I am wondering because I have been alone for so long, other than the occasional boyfriend, would I adapt to having children so late in life?  should I have had my chrildrean earlier in life?  and will I truly find someone I can spend the rest of my life with, or have I spent so much time on myself and taken so long, that I have missed all the windows of oppertuntiy to find that once true mate and settle down.  Now granted I have the dog who has been a constant and loyal companion, has filled the void for several years, but have I become...