Where did you go

Where did you go when I needed you most?
The hole is so big in my life
Yet I don’t know why

Your wisdom
Your smile
Your teasing way
It seems just like yesterday I spoke to you last

The man I looked up too
And loved with all I am
Has left and gone
Leaving me all alone

No more hugs
No more talks
No more his favorite girl
No more his little princess

I feel so alone
So lost
So confused
Which way do I go
What do I do

Arguments ensue
Family lines drawn
Hatred and disgust
Flow from every pore

Why did you leave
And leave me all alone
Why did you leave
And leave me lost
Why did you leave
And leave me confused

I’m tired of being the rock
I’m tired of answering their problems
I’m tired of being confused and hurt
I’m tired of feeling alone

I know you are in a better place
Yet your time here should have been longer
A freak accident took you from me
And now I’m alone

You taught me to live
To remember the past
To remember what life was like
To remember at all

So I shall live on
And make you so proud
And show the world I too
Will turn it upside down.

And when it is my time to go
I will find comfort in knowing
I will see you again grandpa
and hear your laughter

So until then
Watch over me
As you have done for so many years
Resting high above on those puffy white clouds
Holding my place, for when it’s my time to go.


©2008, Amanda Tachick

Comments

Roxanne Schwandt said…
It's a beautiful poem, and Grandpa is proud of you.
October 7, 2008 at 6:32 AM
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