Only time will tell

Surrounded by darkness
Faint glimmer of light from the phone
Looking, watching, waiting
Suddenly the shrill ring starts

Hurriedly grasping for the phone
Fumbling clumsily to answer it
Franticly saying, Hello?
Sadly not hearing the voice I wish to hear.

Responding lethargically to asked questions.
Hanging up only to weep from sadness
Wondering what I have done to deserve such an ache
Searching for an answer that I might never know.

Feeling the sense of being lost
Wanting to know why me, why now
Love has cause me this pain
And it may be the only cure to heal me.

Will I know such a joy again?
Will I feel that sense of euphoria, of longing, of needing?
Will those same desires, wantings, needings be returns unto me by another?
Only time can tell, only time shall heal this pain.


©2008, Amanda Tachick

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